Waitlist - My Humble Abode

I really really really really wish I had not finished my applications so late.  Waitlist.  Alternate List.  Deferred. Alternate List.  Yes, I was given three different terms for the same thing.  I'm 4/4 on being waitlisted which I guess is better than being rejected.  But let's be realistic: what school is not going to fill its class and go off its waitlist?  Even more unlikely: which one will take ME off its waitlist?

This whole process just makes me feel insignificant.  For the past few years, whenever I told people what I'm involved in and what I'm doing with my life they are always impressed.  However, all of my accomplishments have come to mean nothing.  It is so frustrating.

WAITLISTED.  That is where I am.  That is where I will remain.  And I hate myself for it.

Accepted: 0

Deferred: 4

Waiting for response post-interview: 1

Waiting for response: 6

Rejected: 4